Posted by Anemone on July 12, 2011, at 17:19:01
In reply to Re: T has always been good, now is stupid butthead, posted by Dinah on July 12, 2011, at 16:47:53
Hi Dinah,
I was just reading your "Sh*t faced B*STARD" post in 2006 and feeling so badly for what you went through. I agree your T can be good but also bad. How did things get back to normal after your month off?
Yes, you are right, I *had" told her I was mad at her at the beginning of the session, but it seemed like she was not satisfied and wanted me to get madder, perhaps to make sure I don't hold anger in? I don't get mad often, only when someone hurts me. I don't need to be provoked, I get mad when I'm mad.
Here are the hurtful things she said (in a judgmental, impatient tone): "So when are you going to launch the store? What do you mean you don't have an exact date? Why haven't you done this and that already? What is taking you so long?......"
Therapy no longer feels safe with her judgment and pushing. I thought she trusted me to work at my best pace. I have my mom and myself nagging me IRL, I don't need her to nag me.
I think she tried the "Brainspotting" techniques with me because she was getting impatient and wanted to help me faster.
I MUST go back eventually because she is/was the love of my life, the only one who hears and knows me. But am reluctant to pay more money to risk being hurt one more time.
Thank you Dinah for taking the time to "listen" and reply.
Anemone
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