Posted by DAisym on February 10, 2009, at 0:20:30
In reply to Re: Developmental stages in therapy » DAisym, posted by antigua3 on February 8, 2009, at 8:31:05
********It's about self worth for me; probably self esteem is mixed in there too. See, I felt like I've always been underestimated in my life, except by my husband, and I go overboard wanting to prove everyone wrong. It's exhausting, and you'd think by now I would have learned that it doesn't work...**********
Antigua,
I think for me it is the opposite, although we have the same solution. I go overboard too - but that is because I'm terrified someone will recognize what a fake I am. I am an over achiever to the nth degree - I think I'm trying to deflect any close observations, so no one will see the black marks. It all feels like a house of card, even my career. I get frightening thoughts of "if only they knew" - but I couldn't tell you why anyone else knowing would take away from everything I've done. I feel like people overestimate me - except my husband - who told me loudly and frequently that I was nothing special - I was just "lucky."
It is all such hard work.
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