Posted by Nadezda on September 30, 2008, at 11:35:35
In reply to Re: I wish my state of mind were more stable » Nadezda, posted by lucie lu on September 29, 2008, at 18:11:53
Thanks, Lucie lu.
I can see what you're saying about the medications. I guess I wish there were some better combination, and maybe there is. I'm always asking my pdoc if something new has come out, and also asking about possible additions. Last time I went, we tried something new that's made things a lot better and given me more continuity than I've had.
Maybe it's hard for me to know what's possible, because I've been so depressed and in such an incoherent state for so long that even the peace of mind and hopefulness that I've achieved, however unstable it is, seems miraculous to me. I know that there aren't many ADs that I can take. Like you, I can't tolerate the SSRI's. I've settled on Emsam, which is an Maoi. I did try wellbutrin, but this seems to work best for me. I've tried pretty much everything else, too, and am on a pretty complicated mix as it is.
But I think you may be right, too, that the meds aren't doing everything they could. I'll try to talk to my pdoc about it next time I go. I know there isn't much he can do to make it completely right-- but maybe timing things better, or sequencing them in some different way would add to the balance.
You're so right though-- I agree or plan to do things in one mood-- and when the time arrives, I'm in a different place and somehow the person who has to do the thing seems like someone else. I guess my T thinks it's more motivated than accidental, these shifts in perspective, and maybe I can work more on them with him. I try to remind him of the medication and how much of a difference that makes-- but he really is pretty clear that he just wants to focus on what we can do. I understand why he says that-- and won't cut me any slack--
But talking to my pdoc is something I don't need him for-- and trying to be more aware of how the meds affect me might be a place to start.
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