Posted by lovelorn on December 10, 2007, at 13:04:03
In reply to Re:being split » lovelorn, posted by muffled on December 10, 2007, at 12:01:48
>That was a WONDERFUL description Lovelorn.
Thank you too for trusting and sharing your trauma :-( (((Lovelorn)))Thanks Muffled. And thanks for the hug. I can share it now as I understand myself and that part of myself better and as I've healed some. It wouldn't have been as easy a year ago!
>So that inner kid is NOT separate? But she must be, cuz she is herself? But you are aware of her enuf to let her out.
You know that she is you in a previous time? That kid. Is there just one? Does she know you are there then as you comfort her?Actually, I do experience my younger, regressed part differently than you. It is a separate part of my functioning mind, and yes when I feel that part of my mind and the emotions that go with it, it can seem like it is a 'little person' all its own but I don't go so far as experiencing her as completely separate from me. I have this part and I put a visual to it, a visual that is still me and not completely separate. I recognize it's me, just a different part of my mind and emotion. Interestingly enough, I don't view it as me in a previous time. It feels like it sometimes but I am realizing it is and has always been part of me, even now. Since I experience it now, it is part of me now. What it is feeling emotionally and processing mentally is from a previous time, but it is still part of who I am now and it expresses needs I need to fulfill and answer now too in a different way. Obviously I can't go back in time and undo the damage in reality and provide it what it needed back then. I have to understand and heal it now and do what I can in the now to help heal that part. I know that may sound a bit confusing or complicated. I don't dissociate or completely split off as you and some others do. There is a mental, emotional and memory thread that connects me to my adult and young, regressed mind so that I know and sense it is all me.
There is just one, yes. And yes, as I begin to visualise more, "she" or that part of my hurt mind knows I am there as I comfort her. My mind makes nice feelings and nice images of myself comforting my smaller self. I used to see that part as a child me; however, now I am beginning to see that part as an adult me, only smaller or I mix the images between child and small adult or sometimes even as me and a bird representing the small/child part of me.
>I'm so sorry, if it distresses you don't answer this post at all.
I am glad to share what I can, now that I can.
>I am just ever curious bout this insdie kid stuff, and you seem to have a slightly different angle on it ...
Yes, just like you have a different angle on it and some others which I find interesting.
>Thanx, and don't answer if upsetting OK?
No, I don't answer if I believe it will be upsetting or possibly triggering. Thanks for the concern though, muffled.
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