Posted by ElaineM on May 9, 2007, at 21:49:01
In reply to Re: Crying. Help me., posted by Honore on May 8, 2007, at 16:48:05
Thanks Honore
>>>>>And maybe if you understand what her thought process if here, you'll realize that it isn't you-- and that she's not discarding you, but trying, perhaps not in a helpful way, to protect you in some way that you don't now understand.
I'd love to think that. I'm just terrified right now. Ativan like crazy. I'm scared my whole world is gonna implode [that I'm gonna be humiliated, and have my T destroyed in one motion], and I'm scared the stress is gonna effect my health.
The idea of her discarding me feels like I'm being stabbed in the heart. It hits so hard on two of my biggest/most sensitive issues: that I repell everyone, and that everyone I feel safe with leaves or dies. Losing her makes me feel more alone than I have since first falling into my ED. [I didn't even think about her this much when we would'nt speak for a long time. But knowing she was out there and open made me stronger - without having to even speak with her often]I hope she tells me more than a few sentences. I need to understand this.
blove El
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