Posted by philyra on May 10, 2007, at 12:49:33
In reply to contact with former Ts? - FOR ALL, and » wishingstar, posted by ElaineM on May 10, 2007, at 10:21:50
> Anyone else still have contact with a former T? How does that go?ElaineM,
i was glad to see your posts - i haven't been on the boards much but have also been wondering how you are...i'm so sorry that this is happening to you.
i had a very intense, very powerful & productive relationship w/ my first therapist which had to end prematurely for other reasons. i reconnected with her a few years later because i had missed her so terribly over the years and we had a scary, incredibly intense, beautiful couple of meetings. i asked her if i could see her again and she said no with tears in her eyes (i was crying too), that it would be too hard to let go of me again. she's pretty boundaried, so this was an unusually intimate thing to say, and it was hard to hear, but over time i came to accept it as something that she needed. to be honest, i don't know if i'll ever feel like i got total closure with her because of the path of my depression and having to terminate early etc., but i'm mostly okay with not having contact with her. at the time i was working with a new therapist too, who i worked with for 9 years and with whom i could process all of this. anyway, i don't knwo if this is helpful since it's a different situation and i dont' think i depended on T #1 in the same way that you do, but i do feel like she's the kind of ally i might never have again in the same way. i wish you could talk to your main T about this...i definitely felt some of the same things it sounds like you're feeling, like i lose everyone who really cares. for me too i often felt like oh, i can't sustain a relationship, i don't know how.
anyway i'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.
take care,
philyra
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