Posted by ElaineM on May 11, 2007, at 20:20:31
In reply to p.s. » ElaineM, posted by philyra on May 10, 2007, at 15:23:21
I told my T about the email I got from LadyT severing communications. It was so hard trying to explain to him why she said she did (or why I thought she did). Alot of dancing around details (obviously) - I felt like such a deceptive a$$hole. Especially cause he was soooo sympathetic. I'm really terrible. I don't have the energy or the heart to write about it tonight - maybe tomorrow.
Then I got a reply from LadyT. About 8 sentences, again. (which I can't talk about tonight either) And that was that. Done, until I see her in person once more this summer. I feel so stupid for telling her the worst of me and my life. I wish I could take it all back. If she can do a complete reversal like this, then I may as well have told a stranger on the street instead. That's what it feels like right now. She said she'd be there for me. I'm so embarrassed.
I miss who she was to me :"(Thanks to everyone who replied - I'll update soon-ish. ((((you guys)))
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