Posted by Poet on April 14, 2007, at 13:19:46
In reply to let's hear it for self-destruction!! ***trigger**, posted by gazo on April 14, 2007, at 0:06:21
Hi Gazo,
Right now what keeps me going is getting that job I wanted/needed so badly. Though jobs are also what motivates me to completely self-destruct. Damned if I have one, damned if I don't have one. Though so far, so good.
I don't think I've gotten drunk within an hour of coming home from work or my T's office, but definitely within three hours. I've told my T that I should just drink while I'm there. She's says that's a boundary issue and would reflect badly on her as a therapist. Though if I use my flask shaped like a cell phone she might not even know, so would that count against her? Hold, on T, gotta take this important call, swallow.
Seriously, what keeps me going is that I have got a job. If I lose the job, I will lose it. My T has told me millions of times that I need to find other things to want to live for. The usual, think of your husband, friends, cats just doesn't work for me, it's work that works for me, so to speak. I think what keeps you going is different for everyone.
Poet
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