Posted by gazo on April 14, 2007, at 1:38:43
In reply to Re: let's hear it for self-destruction!! ***trigger** » gazo, posted by muffled on April 14, 2007, at 0:28:01
yeah...it was a couple of bottles of wine posting. i don't feel quite as bad as that sounded. i just get frustrated.
i know i probably sound like an alcoholic, my behaviour lately isn't ideal for sure. Generally though, when things are good, i rarely drink.
here is exactly what is happening... the drinking was what i did years ago during some very bad times... it was all i could do to cope. Now, i am facing dealing with those things in therapy... AND i have other major pressures. My brain has taken me back onto old familiar roads. That is why i am doing these things now. That is why other bad coping mechanisms are calling me too.
THAT is why i got my T to move me to weekly appts.
i know there are reasons to keep going. i have people i love.
i hope i don't scare anyone... i need to write to get it out... it helps. As long as i am writing i will be ok.
poster:gazo
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