Posted by ElaineM on September 9, 2006, at 19:02:06
In reply to Re: bye to counsellor ***SI trig, posted by llrrrpp on September 9, 2006, at 0:12:11
I am exhausted -- in all ways. I'm still dealing with all the other stuff I had going on too. I've been off the antibiotics for something like three weeks and the two upper-teeth are starting to flare up again. And I can't be my dentist's guinea pig for these ones cause uppers are too complicated. He is still waiting to schedule the second round of endo on BOTH of the ones I had done already. He's finally admitting that both he and the endodontist didn't get the job done. Though he did say it's because my teeth happen to be one of the rare cases where mini off-shoot canals run underneath. I'm just hoping to g*d that they both will re-open them for free. These next two teeth will cost $1500 each. And that's WITHOUT the crowns on any of them.....enough blabbing about dental cr@p....I'm trying to be with that pain too. I have an appointment next week, and will probably start more pills on Monday.
CC had to find the "appropriate" T because of cost. I need a certain kind that way, cause I don't have money for others. And also, female T's aren't as available as males here. I do think CC was nice though -- at least she looked, she tried. She didn't have to do even that much. And she looked like a grown-up pixie. ((((CC))))
Yes Dinah, I hope she was a little too negative, cause I worry that no other T will want to be near me because of this. That they will never want to show too much support, or give me a regular hug. That they will be cold and uncaring and overly rigid. LadyT only gave me a small hug a handful of times, but it meant so much. It was always so comforting. (It was always appropriate and normal though) But I worry I will be as alienated from future T's (because of the history I will bring), as I am from the rest of the world. And then there will be no comfort anywhere :(
But I don't need to worry about that because I'm taking a rest from thinking of a new T. I am not afraid of being left in this situation anymore. I am going with the flow. I am ok. I will wear pink shoes. ((((LL))))
Thank you both for helping me when real-life people don't, and for being nice even though I SI'd.
blove, EL
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