Posted by ElaineM on September 9, 2006, at 16:25:47
In reply to Re: bye to counsellor ***SI trig, posted by sunnydays on September 8, 2006, at 22:23:07
Thanks Sunny. I'm going to try and reply to posts as much as I can -- though it may be slow. I'm trying not to think of yesterday too much :-(
Yes, she said that it was "Okay" if I didn't think I could call - or even if it wasn't right away. She said to just be aware of warning signs incase things progress to a serious level. (I forget her exact words) She said I'll always have the numbers available if I want them. But it's too much now.
The weird thing about talking is that it can feel good in the moment, when I'm just blurting with relief, so eager for someone to hear me -- but then when I'm alone after and remembering everything I said, and how casually I said it (in a way) and how unguarded I was, it only ends up freaking me out. It's been so hard because I've ended up revealing all these things (and more) only to never see the person again - 3 times. It feels like someone saving you from drowning, only to throw you back in once you've just caught your breath.
Yesterday didn't happen.
You're a really kind person for listening even when things don't work out. Though I really don't know what I want anymore. I don't think I ever did:-(
((((((sunnydays))))))
blove, EL
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