Posted by Tamar on June 12, 2006, at 16:53:40
In reply to Self defense classes? » orchid, posted by muffled on June 12, 2006, at 16:00:56
>> Maybe next time I’ll win! Or maybe I’ll kick her *ss a little bit first…
>
> What d'ya mean by that ?
> Or mebbe you don't know ?
> Why d'ya need to kick her *ss?
> You can ignore me if I am annoying you!I guess I meant that there’s a part of me that I hate. And I feel like she wins when I injure myself. So if I could kick her *ss she wouldn’t be able to get me to SI. Or something like that. I talk strange sometimes…
> Do you fear for your physical safety or more mental safety?
Physical. Definitely.
> Nosey aren't I?
Nah… that’s just friendly interest!
> I goto go out and mow my lawn :-(
> Its hot.
> I'm perimenopausal and I SWEAT.
> Sticky and yucky.Ah, the clinging of the clothes, the sloshing of the shoes… Lovely summer…
> Don't like to dress too sparesly cuz of scars :-(
I don’t mind people seeing my scars when I’m feeling confident, but I find it harder when I’m feeling a bit low.
> Hope you doing ok and I not setting you off or something. Sometimes I'm kinda stupid.
I’m OK. You’re not setting me off. And I happen to know that you are extremely smart. I have ways of knowing these things!
> ***Have you asked him why he looked alarmed? I often make assumptions about what my t is thinking. She keeps teeling me to ASK and not assume.
Yeah, maybe I should just ask. Although he’s not very good at giving straight answers. Sometimes he does, but often he replies to questions in Therapist-Speak, so he manages to answer without really saying anything.
> *** Well, imagine me with my knife and hiking boots, sitting beside you on a wall. And we together so we safe. And we drinking coffee and harassing guys that walk by. And we safe and having fun. And its ok. And we ok.
I definitely like that!
> ***Alarm bells!!!!!!!!!! There are MANY AD out there. Unfortunately the only way you know how you personally gonna react is to try them :-( and find what works.
> I ran out of zoloft, OH MAN! I been cranky! So I got an emergency 7 day supply from pharmacy and see my stinky poo GP (see I a bitch too!) on Fri.If you piss on her car today, it’ll be dry and ready for more by Friday…
> ***Intense emotions require intense stopping mechanisms. Mebbe you can yell stop loudly, and that will seem so strange that you WILL stop and babble. Even if I got noboddy to talk to I post and reply and it gets me over the moment until I take benedryl and goto bed.
Ah! That’s a good idea. I will try that.
> Do you know how to fight correctly?
Oh yes. I play contact sport. When the referee’s not looking, anything goes…> Do you know how to use a knife effectively?
> And be able to use it instantly with one hand?
Never used one. I’m not good at stuff with my hands (except I play the piano and, well, you know...). If I held a knife I’d probably end up stabbing myself!> Do you know how to be dead in your eyes and show NOTHING?
That’s one thing I’ve never mastered. I think I will try to learn. I think it would be a useful skill.> All these things make a person more confident that they have more power.
> If you feel more confident, then you can often verbally get out of situations. Or de-escalate them.Usually the verbal thing works for me.
> There's no guarantees, but you can tip the scales more in your favor.
> I saw a thing on TV where they had special self defense classes for women who had been assaulted. The focus was not only fight, but whole body language and self esteem etc. Wonder if there's anything like that around for you?The funny thing is, I know that my body language is confident. Even when I feel unsafe, I walk with confidence. In the dark people sometimes think I’m a man because I’m tall and quite big. One time I nearly got a punch in the face from a man who thought I was another man (I started it by calling him a c*nt when he tried to run down two girls in his car). He backed off when he realised I was a woman, but I wasn’t going to run away! Actually, I’d rather a man punched me than showed me his penis. What’s that about?
Happy lawnmowing!
Tamar
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