Posted by B2chica on September 13, 2005, at 9:04:13
In reply to Re: Cutting*trigger*, posted by fairywings on September 12, 2005, at 16:34:44
saw T last night... told him everything..from scoping the site to hiding blades to sneak in if needed. also how i thought everyone was sick of hearing the same old story from me and how different it felt this time...more serious/reality serious.
ithink the only reason he didn't have me go to the hospital is cuz i pleaded and said that i have several meetings this week that i just can't miss, one today and one thursday. but that i can't see past then and with nothing 'scheduled' i'm even more lost.
i see him again thursday at 4:00 and he said unless i have a really good reason not too that i should plan on going into the hospital.
somehow that actually relaxed me. He is concerned that he is not helping me and wants to be ethical and safe about this. honestly i think anyone else would have locked me up a long time ago. i thank God everyday for my T.
he made me promise to take all the blades i was hiding and throw them away. it was so hard but i did. now i feel a little lost. i liked having them there. he also wants me to call my pdoc today to let him know whats going on with me.i'm feeling better this morning, but it usually gets worse throughout the day anyway. so who knows.
thanks for being here.
b2c.
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