Posted by B2chica on September 12, 2005, at 9:15:43
In reply to Cutting*trigger* » terrics, posted by muffled on September 11, 2005, at 23:36:45
if i die i ruin my husbands life if i don't die i ruin mine. i feel so trapped here.
i want to cut because it does normally ease S. ideation in me but this time i'm afraid i'll start and not stop.
i think my meds are pooping out or something. sometimes i swear i bring it all on myself. that i make everything worse than it is, then i feel but a fool.
i am a fool. ignorant and insane.i want to act on my wishes. sometimes i confuse the act with the results, sometimes i want the one and sometimes i want the other...anyone understand?
thank you all So much giving half a d@mn, i'm going to crawl back into my hole for a while. don't see pdoc for another month and half. i hate being a pest so i'll see if i can make it that long.
i see T today, i'll tell him. but i'm SOOOO tired of going to the hospital seems like everyother month! it's GOT TO STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
b2c.
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