Posted by shortelise on February 14, 2004, at 1:34:20
In reply to Re: Validation, posted by Rigby on February 13, 2004, at 10:28:19
Indeed, it's what would remain there scares the pee out of me.
What if there is nothing? My neurosis is pretty interesting, except when it makes me cry for days on end. What if it's the only interesting thing about me? What if I am a boring dolt without it?
ShortE> This is *such* a good point. And also, if we were to just stand straight, as you say, and look truth in the eye not only would it vanish but, maybe the difficulty is, what would remain in its place? Are we just too used to being full of self-doubt? Is self-doubt such an integral part of our being that we'd feel not "ourselves" without it?
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> Sometimes I truly feel self-deprecation and self-doubt are huge parts of my personality and maybe are things that are part of a certain charm. So who would I be without it? I really admire people who are confident but cannot stand people who feel and say that, for example, they're beautiful or sexy, etc.--total turn-off. Would never want to be one of these people or be around them. But how do you begin to feel more validated about yourself but not come off like a bragger?
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> > Sometimes I wonder that. I wonder if my madness isn't a habit, just a nasty habit, and that if I were to choose to stand straight and look the truth in the eye, it would vanish.
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> > I wonder, what's in this for me that I can't give it up, or choose not to? How do I benefit?
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> > I have only questions.
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