Posted by ElaineM on November 21, 2006, at 20:30:01
In reply to Re: Tell me there's hope, posted by Deneb on November 21, 2006, at 19:50:58
I've seen purgers have success at stopping (as far as I know of them now). The earlier you treat a disorder the better - better chance at recovery.
Deneb, how is your eating? If you were in the programs I was in (and not on weight gain), they would tell you to be eating more than 1200 calories (thought I can't for the life of me remember how they altered for height),spread out over a day - EVERY single day. Including a portion of "high energy" items. Anything less would be considered a dieting level, and setting the stage for symptoms.You CAN get better. It happens. But you have to want it. Really really want it. Be willing to risk whatever recovery means (for ex, not weighing your dream weight, eating regularly, committing to coping strategies, enlisting more help...)
I seriously think you should either add on a therapist to your pdoc sessions, or increase the number and frequency you have with her now. I would do that first and/or mention it to your pdoc first before telling your mom. She will be able to help you plan what to say to your mom, and how to deal with your family's reaction if it isn't what you'd expected. THough, you know your mom better than me. If you know she'd only be supportive then maybe it's best for you to tell her now.
Purging is so terribly dangerous. It's so instantly destructive to your body. I don't know where you live, but perhaps your pdoc would know of places or programs (they come in different levels too, not only residential) that offer sliding scales. Or maybe your family has good insurance. Ask her to see if she can find out more about local resources for you.
I'm proud of you for wanting to attack this head on. Going into recovery on my own for the first time was the f*cking hardest thing I'd ever had to do in my life up until then. And I was scared sh*tless. But I was truely terrified by what I was doing to my body, and the results I was seeing, and I didn't want to die yet. IF you can't get your purging under control you should probably tell your dentist (though they can usually tell on their own). My teeth got absolutely destroyed by malnutrition - which also happens when you don't allow nutrients to be absorbed (in addition to acid damage from throwing up). It's better to risk a little humility now then have to deal with the root canals later. Bleck. (Root canals & extractions = *shudders*)
((((D))))
blove, EL
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