Posted by Deneb on December 8, 2006, at 0:16:20
In reply to Re: How I'm doing » Deneb, posted by LlurpsieBlossom on December 7, 2006, at 8:33:27
> Deneb, sounds to me like your mom doesn't really understand why you were purging. Do *you* understand why you were purging? I think it's probably more complicated than the urge to lose weight. Millions of folks want to lose weight but most of them don't engage in disordered eating. Were you trying to hurt yourself, or show the world that you needed attention? These are some reasons why young women engage in disordered eating.
I think I purge to lose weight. I'm not sure if there are other reasons. My pdoc tells me it's a form of punishment. She might be right, I dunno. I do like attention. I hope I wasn't doing it for attention.
> Tell me more about why it makes you feel happy. Is it the planning and the pride that you can stick with something? Is it the way your body feels when you're on a diet? Is it because you are giving yourself healthier more nutritious foods than usual? Is it because you like changing the way you look?
It is mostly the planning and pride that I can stick with something that makes me happy. It gives me a sense of accomplishment. Losing weight makes me feel in control. I do also eat healthier foods, so it could be that too.
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> Please talk with your pdoc about your planned weight loss. 20 lbs is a lot on someone your height. I'm not sure that it's a realistic goal, or that it's healthy for many young woman.Losing 20 pounds will bring me to about 92 pounds with a BMI of 18.6. 18.5 is the cutoff for underweight, so I'll still be normal weight.
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> Maybe it might be a good idea to commit to making your body as HEALTHY as possible, rather than just focusing on the number on the scale. You can feel pride and change the shape of your body by doing weight training exercises and taking walks/jogs to burn fat. You say that losing weight makes you happy-- I bet that losing FAT will make you feel happy too. It's a healthy kind of happy, one that your body can sustain and one that will make you more fit, more mentally sharp and more self-confident.Losing fat would make me happy too. It's hard not to focus on the numbers though. I should exercise more. I'm just going to try to lose a little bit of weight. I really think it would be good for me to lose some weight. I'll lose fat too.
Thanks for trying to help me. I'll work with my pdoc on this.
Deneb*
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