Posted by Deneb on November 21, 2006, at 19:02:30
In reply to clarification, posted by ElaineM on November 21, 2006, at 10:33:04
I hate myself. I just promised to never purge again and I did, twice today. I hate myself. I've eaten 3000 kcal so far today.
I worry about my teeth, my stomach, my esophagus, my electrolytes and heart. I'm afraid I'm going to drop dead. I keep promising myself I will stop, but even with the threat of possible death I still purge.
Teri Schiavo was bulimic and she suffered permanent brain damage from a heart attack that resulted from her bulimia. I don't think I'm throwing up often enough for that to happen to me, but maybe I'm wrong, I don't know. I purged 6 times last week.
I don't want to die. When people die I think they are gone forever. Ame Sans Vie just died. He was around my age. I could die too. I hate death. I wish people never have to experience the death of anything or anyone they love or like.
Tell me there's hope for me. :-( This whole purging thing has gotten me down. Are there any success stories?
I'm so scared. :-( Is 6 times a week enough to risk electrolyte imbalances?
Deneb*
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