Posted by wacky on August 15, 2006, at 10:12:08
In reply to Re: Find your purpose, posted by exquilter on August 15, 2006, at 0:08:22
I am so touched by your posts - and I can tell you that you have inspired me so much. Thank you.
I too have experienced those urges to drive off the road. This is my second major depression and although I'm on the mend, the urges are still so close in memory that my heart goes out to you. The fact that you haven't done anything - as of yet - is hope. I know you want to end your misery. But, like the others have said, if you can find the strength to hang in there a little longer, and confide in your pdoc and T about the details of your plans, they will help you come up with a plan for you to stay safe. I understand you don't want to go back to the hospital. I have been hospitalized twice and neither time did I find it helpful - except that I stayed alive. I like the day treatment idea. I did that too for awhile - and if nothing else it helped keep me busy.
By sharing your distress on this site, you have touched many others - and inspired others to appreciate their own journey. This, in and of itself, is an enormous contribution to others that share your feelings. What I'm trying to say is that even in your darkest moments, you ARE making a difference in other people's lives. That is enough to warrant your continued existence. The world needs you. Other people in the world benefit from you existence. I have benefitted from your existance and I would like to continue the dialogue.
You DO matter. You helped me today to get out of myself just a little bit more. For that I thank you. I would be most grateful if you could hang with us and offer more of your story. Please stay with us.
Nancy
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