Posted by RN320 on August 13, 2006, at 7:51:53
In reply to Re: Find your purpose, posted by UgottaHaveHope on August 13, 2006, at 4:38:01
Thank you for your thoughts and the way they were expressed.
I have a therapist who practices CBT whenever and wherever he can during our sessions. I see him at least once a week. Unfortunately when I'm overly stressed and experiencing more of the psychotic features of the depression we work on that more......... As I've just had yet another death in my family last week and the funeral plans are being dragged out 2 weeks (God only knows why)and I'm supposed to be starting Cardiac Rehab on Monday (3x a week for the next 8 weeks seems a little overwhelming to me), my therapist is just helping me devise a plan to handle these new stressors. I feel really comfortable with my therapist and psychiatrist. I had a second opinion, so I know that I'm getting good care. They're both very much on my side, and I'm really lucky to have them. My psychiatrist is very aggressive with med management and mentioned the possibility of oral selegeline or nardil in the future- he says that it's entirely possible that I will require higher doses than my insurance will pay for in the patches (max is one 12 mg patch per day and I'm at 9 now).
I know that there are a lot of people that have it worse than me.....all I have to do is read some of the messages on this site or listen to the news. It makes me feel all the more guilty that I'm here taking up space since I've become so useless over the past 5 years- so self absorbed and non-contributory.
Thank you again.The sense of purpose is something that I'm just lost on. I always identified with my career so much and that's gone. Because of my lifestyle prior to the depression, and the death of my best friend last year- I have a few local friends but the bulk of them are scattered throughout the country. I am unable to handle the stress of travel, so I haven't seen any of them in the past 5 years. I don't tend to call people all that often because I don't really have anything that is interesting or worthwhile to contribute. When I do call, I try not to talk about myself and focus on them.
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