Posted by Karen44 on August 16, 2006, at 22:36:23
In reply to Re: How do you know when you're really going to do it?, posted by RN320 on August 12, 2006, at 21:28:46
Here is my take on things. I don't think you have any respect or care for you psychologist and psychiatrist. The fact you would keep things secret from your psychiatrist says you are either angry with this person or just don't care. You would kill your cats too. All of this speaks to a great deal of anger perhaps with yourself but also with others.
I have a fairly good idea where you are coming from having had five hospitalizations and three sugeries in 2005; one surgery in 2006 and continued now chronic physical problems. It isn't fun; I have been depressed to the point of contemplating suicide and have a plan as well, but I keep talking to my doctor, and he knows as long as I talk, I won't do anything. Made that promise which I will keep. I am struggling to keep working and have been doing so. I am lucky that my job, though there are deadlines, allows me to develop my own schedule. As I sit here I am in excrutiating pain -- had two cervical spine surgeries last year, and the problems are not gone. I am trying physical therapy now with only minor help. I am not willing to throw in the towel though I came close a month ago. I, too, have had problems with finding the right medication. So what about going back to the hospital. Beats being dead and having no chance to see if life would improve. You seem awfully focued on the suicide thing such that you don't have time to consider anything else. I hope you talk to your psychiatrist and let that person talk to your psychologist to impress on him or her the gravity of the situation.
Karen
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