Posted by susan47 on April 27, 2008, at 18:34:31
In reply to And, posted by susan47 on April 27, 2008, at 18:25:49
Mommy mommy mom, I love you. I love you and I love myself, and my daughter, your granddaughter, is going to be tremendous because she already is that. She is consciousness growing, she is Conscious Now. And because of this she carries an enormous pain body .. and I cannot tell you any of this because you have a different reality that won't allow you access to your pain body, and I have never had access either but I have Felt It, Mum.
I have felt that pain body of yourself, absorbed it into my very cells, it exists as a living thing in my own pain body, larger than yours because it encompasses all your pain As Well As my own.
And C's, hers encompasses yours, mine, and her own. And we all carry the pain of our forebears, our ancestor's pain is also there.
But so is their joy.
So is their hope.
So is their forgiveness for all of humanity, for all the unforgiveable things we carry in our souls, all the endless Knowing of the unbearable, to torturous wave of humanity, how we have all suffered so much, for so very, very long a time.
But somewhere too, is wonder. Somewhere, there is love in pureness. Purity. The pure love of a newborn look into mother's eyes, and hers in response. The unity and pureness of a love that should never be broken, never sullied.
The pureness of love that is in all of Life.
I want to be that, always, Always.
Forever I want to bask in the radiant glow of that love, and the afterglow of it as well, and the foreglow, the knowing that I was coming to you to love you. The love of a child for it's mother. Nothing more sacred, more joyous than that is the gift we all have access to.
Please, God, without a drug.
Please. I'm begging you.
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