Posted by special_k on March 29, 2006, at 5:49:21
In reply to Re: being a bitch again..., posted by special_k on March 29, 2006, at 5:40:05
> and we just go around hurting each other and trying to self destruct only the body is so resilient and it won't let go
though of course we can damage it up good and mark it and stuff to feed our pain. perminant reminders that was what i wanted anyway perminant reminders because the years the years in my room i remember lying there at night (every night) crying and crying and crying and vowing I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS THERE IS NO WAY I WILL EVER FORGET THISand i was right and i made sure i made sure and so it is my fault it is my fault and i bemoan remembering now but to forget is like a betrayal 'cause nobody listened nobody cared nobody gave a sh*t so long as i was nice to them so nice to them so they can f*ck off to live a life where they can forget forget and move on but not me no way i can never forget 'cause i promised i promised and i hate myself so much and i think i shuold have been put out of my misery long ago and this f*cking body why won't it just let me die?
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