Posted by Festus on November 4, 2003, at 21:48:45
In reply to stjames and judy1, thank you. , posted by Temmie on November 4, 2003, at 21:00:26
I read your story with compassion and felt remorse for you being torn by love and reality.I went through very similar circumstances with my partner in life.When we first started dating,I was coming off a bad Divorce and had become quite a "functioning drunk",I guess you could call it.We,too,fell inlove,and she joined right in with my drinking and partying,I felt like I had turned her into something she really was,nt,or did not want to be.She finally backed out of the "Fast Lane"but I kept doing 90.All the bad stuff went on,the cursing and not remembering things I said or did towards her and ,finally,she realized that she could not stay with me anymore,not the way I was.So she left.She left because she really did love me enough to leave.She knew if she stayed,it would enable me to continue being a dork,a drunk,stoned dork!That was her way of seeing if I really LOVED HER!If I did not,I,d have kept partying,anyway.If that was truly the case,then she,d have been better off leaving a man that loved a buzz more than her.Thank the Lord I really did love her,cause I missed her so bad that partying wasn,t fun any more.It was fake.But love,real love is not.
As I come to a close,I hear my lovely Wife putting our 7 year old girl to bed,and I look forward to the next day now,cause It,s been 13 years since I woke up with a hangover.I,m a realist,a lover of life,not a selfish,self-destructive person who can,t or won,t face reality and defeat it,s demons in order to win it,s delights!I enjoy mine and I thank God my darlin helped me face my Demons.There is beauty and joy to be had in the short while we are here.All one must do is want it,want it bad enough to DO WHAT IT TAKES TO KEEP IT!God be with you,Temmie.Festus
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