Posted by alexandra_k on February 14, 2014, at 1:02:57
In reply to Re: happy happy happy, posted by alexandra_k on February 11, 2014, at 23:37:24
I've decided / discovered it is a training bar (what you teach kids on) rather than a woman's bar. So I'm not ecstatic anymore... But I'm happy enough.
The community mental health meeting went alright. The lady seems nice. She's an OT apparently. I asked her if she has a sensory gym and she said yes but looked surprised. I guess they are supposed to be for kids.
I don't want to get my hopes up or anything... Been there, done that. But she seemed nice, yeah. Have a meeting with her next week, so will see how that goes.
Still having problems sorting out logistics. Or... I don't suppose it is actually that I'm having any sorts of special problems, it is just that I'm not used to / have become impatient in dealing with... Well... The sort of crap that mostly fills most peoples lives, I suppose. I have been spoiled, rather.
Just... Organizing. I guess. Organizing. Most students wait until about now-ish to start sorting accommodation / moving in... Etc... I had all that organized. Most students don't buy their books until they get given their course outlines all printed off and stapled together and presented into their hands. I like to have 3 summer months with mine... Or I'm chomping at the bit for my course related costs to come through (2 weeks before course start date) to purchase what I've been borrowing incessantly from the library...
Am I more organized??? Perhaps... Perhaps in a way I am. But in other ways... It is more of an over-compensation for my actual lack of organizational ability, I think. More of that...
I need to write a proper letter to the folks down in Wellington. Or... I don't *need* to, actually. But... It would be in my best interests to. Perhaps. There is this new thing (just introduced early last year) about how you can apply for limited full time status even though you only have a part time workload. One of the grounds for applying... Is that you have been advised to do so from someone in authority at the institution... And that it is in your best academic interests not to undertake a full time load (e.g., because you will likely fail).
They are actually honest (first time ever???) about who they share information with. Pretty much every government department (it seems to me). Except possibly fishing... And maybe the electricity authority. I jest... But really it does make sense. Immigration. Customs. Tax department. The usual suspects...
Anyway... They say... Something about how you can provide additional information (should you choose) about ... Your life aspirations. You can provide more information about your personal circumstance (should you choose) and that that can weigh into a decision.
I'm thinking... That I should really take the time to do it properly. Basically... Put in a proper application. To say that I do really want to do medicine, but of course I can't do it without the support of others. Without the support of the country... The government. I need one part time year for sure. Worst case (should know within the first two weeks) I can't handle the baby physics and chem courses till next year (e.g., even they might require too much math - physics doesn't require calculus but does require math and lots of balancing equations in chem). I... Don't suspect they will because I am making good progress now on ratios / proportions etc and I'm really seeing why they are important (e.g., drawing to scale what you see down a microscope, figuring out the magnification when you have some equation to do with both lenses) blah blah... I think I can kludge together enough math skills to get through... But I need to be a bit humble since what happened with summer school...
Anyway... Apply properly. I mean... I guess I'm basically asking them to loan me a big f*ck*ng chunk of money over the years... It costs a lot to train a doc. Still... I'm certainly not likely to be one who'll set up shop in private practice and enjoy my riches... Or even to bail for better working conditions... I really have been fairly inspired by what people like Fred Hollows and Tropodoc and the like have managed to do... And I'm not at all sure what I can do... If anything very much... But I'd surely like the opportunity to try...
Anyway...
I figure they probably will give me a year... Then I bloody well better have some stellar grades to show them...
This should get me a smartphone / organiser / over my fear of phones / moving to a more normal keeping in touch arrangements with friends / colleagues / small relations and the like... Not falling too far behind in the technology game... Something a bit... more discrete to practice my math on... Which will get me out of the house a bit more (which I need). It will get me course books and a lab coat and some comfortable shoes so I can focus on things other than blisters... Hopefully some compression stuff to... Help hold me together. I think that is what it does... And I do need to enroll in at least one course per semester or I'll go f*ck*ng nuts.
Anyway... I won't let it take more than half a day... But do it properly I will. Those folks know how much work goes into applications / reports. Two half days. Damn them.
I think I can talk to the people down in Wellington... Especially since it is the social development people who wouldn't give me a f*ck*ng job after I failed their f*ck*ng maths test ahahahahaha.
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