Posted by alexandra_k on January 31, 2014, at 23:46:46
In reply to Re: why am i so horrible?, posted by alexandra_k on January 31, 2014, at 20:23:21
perhaps it is about... upsetting the natural order.
you aren't supposed to be able to do well, coming from my background.
it has to be about helping people (who wouldn't do anything otherwise) get entry to scrape through a degree. first in family sort of a thing.
it can't be about helping people (who wouldn't get in otherwise) do programs like... medicine.
i mean... that is what private schools are for. a lot of people invested a lot in their children over the years... helping them do their homework... encouraging them... supporting them... loving them... taking delight in them... sending them to private schools... getting them doing extra-curricular... setting them up with compatible friends...
if people from disadvantaged backgrounds have any chance at all it is when they are identified early enough to get to go to the good schools... to get good, supportive teachers behind them, at the very least. you know... expensive schools. expensive teachers.
if people like me (low decile public schools) stand a chance against people like them then... well...
no.
that simply can't be.
it is too late for me, they tell me. i'm good at english! why do i need to be good at anything else for? i mean, sheesh... who do i think i am???
being a high school english teacher is a suitably respectable thing to do. what do i ?? i think i'm better than that? some people don't have enough to eat. and some people never even get to go to school. who am i??? ungrateful little bitch...
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