Posted by Dinah on May 18, 2004, at 17:07:04
In reply to Re: mother acceptance » Dinah, posted by tabitha on May 18, 2004, at 12:16:21
Well, my hair is completely different from my mom's. She's actually got nice hair, and my baby fine hair wouldn't do the short layered cut she has anyway. I dress completely differently. I suppose I should take comfort in the fact that our bodies aren't too similar (except that I seem to have misplaced my waist). She's short and I'm tall and long waisted with shoulderst that always look like I'm wearing shoulder pads. :) I have my paternal grandma's body. About all I can do to reduce the resemblence is to wear makeup (argh) and to lose weight, which I'm really trying to do.
My therapist and I were talking about this today (naturally). How I am so detached from my body and my appearance that I don't do nearly enough in his opinion to make myself look attractive because I don't equate who I am with what I look like. And that's pretty much true unless I'm forcefully confronted with a mirror or a picture. He'd rather I was more in touch with my body. Blech. What a prospect.
We also talked about the gifts, and how in every area of her life she does what she wants to do without regard for anyone else. And how the gifts... Oh, I can't describe it. He understood anyway. But somehow the gifts tell you you don't exist except as a piece of her. Like she's trying to devour who you really are. I know that sounds nuts, and it's mainly because I don't have the right words for it. But like she used to give me toys way too young for my age because she didn't want me to grow up. She wanted me to be what she wanted me to be, and the gifts were....
Oh, I'm really bad at expressing things sometimes.
What an awful headache producing session that was. :(
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