Posted by wyatthaslakefever on December 29, 2005, at 19:05:55
In reply to Re: Missing her so much...Tamar/Declan » wyatthaslakefever, posted by Tamar on December 28, 2005, at 20:29:29
> Call me a hopeless romantic, but I don’t think that means you can’t be together. To me, it sounds as if you could learn a lot from her about how nice a long term relationship can be.
>Ugh, I just got off the phone with her. She called. She still calls. And I was a moron and was my typical passive-agressive self and she got ticked off (and rightly so) so I just came clean and said I was mad and scr*wed up because... Because I'd fallen in love with her... and that i missed her... She's so bad with small tonal changes--like if my voice displays a hint of anger, she flips out, which is kind of awful because I know that each time I 'mess up' and "scold" her or whatever that it's another mark against me...
But we left the conversation on good terms. I'm seeing her tommorrow. I still feel like a super j*rk though.
ANYWAY....
> There’s always a chance it will end hurtfully. It’s the price we pay for being alive.
That's what I always say. But I'd just die if I hurt her. I'd rather be the hurt one.
>But if you agree with her, then I guess there’s not much that can be done.
I just... I don't want to be uncomfortable. I don't want to be the kind of uncertain that I was--not the trepidatious type of uncertain, the foreboding kind, the kind that... That made me think I was doing something I shouldn't be. Not because of age, nessisarily, just because of... I guess intuition.
But it STILL HURTS and I'm STILL CONFUSED AND MESSED UP ABOUT IT and DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY... Because if it's the right thing to do... Gah. I don't know.
> Experience comes slowly. It’s good to have a first sexual experience with someone you care for. And in time you will have more sex with other women and it will be a little different, but there is plenty of opportunity for beautiful experiences.
>Yes. This seems to be the general concensus.
> Glad it helps. Keep talking. You will find a wonderful partner and it won’t take long because you are, as you say, on the cusp of adult life, and finding a partner is part of being an adult.
>Thanks! Thanks so much. I really appreciate it. I hope I DO find a partner someday. I never thought I would...
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