Posted by wyatthaslakefever on December 28, 2005, at 19:48:11
In reply to Re: Missing her so much... » wyatthaslakefever, posted by Declan on December 28, 2005, at 19:34:14
A combined two-part respnose-type thing:
She's not my teacher or anything like that so no, I guess it's not inapropriate as far as that goes. But as to the age difference... I think it's more of a LIFE difference. I'm just about to graduate from college, terrified of the future, etc. etc. and she's a 40 year old working professional. She's been in a long-term relationship (several, actually) and I have not. She is 100 percent comfortable with sex and sexuality, whereas I am just entering that phase of my life. I feel like I cannot be what she ultimately needs--not a friend with benifits but a real-live girlfriend, the type who would be ready to, I don't know, move in at some point... Whereas I oftentimes need to be alone, alone, alone and unreachable.
We're both afraid of losing each other, I think, and if we continue as 'lovers' or whathaveyou, there's a chance it will end poorly and hurtfully. I think we're both protecting ourselves and are in pretty much in agreement that this descision is a nessisary evil.
BUT, that said: it still HURTS. That's the point. I feel less nervous now, less like I'm doing something I'm not quite ready for. If I had more experience under my belt, maybe. If I wasn't on the cusp of my adult life, again, maybe. Who knows?
Anyway, thanks for listening. Thanks, thanks, thanks. You don't know how much it means.
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