Posted by wyatthaslakefever on December 27, 2005, at 23:08:29
Ugh.
I know, I know it was best for us to just be friends but...
But I miss her so much it hurts.
I know she misses me too.
It's for the best, I know, but there are times it hurts to look at her. I feel like I've lost so much.
Drives me nuts.I hate to think about it, try to block it out with television and music and anything to get my mind off of how bad I feel but sometimes I just CAN'T, and when I run out of cop shows to waste my time with and I'm sitting in silence I feel like I'm going to explode...
And I don't want to talk to my friends about this because they will badmouth her and I don't want that. As much as I'm hurt and mad at her (unjustly, but still) I love her and don't want to speak ill of her. So I guess I'm just venting on here, hope that's okay. Just blasting this into cyberspace.
Sigh. Tommorrow is another day and all that.
poster:wyatthaslakefever
thread:592644
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/relate/20051204/msgs/592644.html