Posted by portage on July 2, 2005, at 18:18:45 [reposted on July 3, 2005, at 10:57:29 | original URL]
I know there's probably a lot of people who post on this board who have been close to someone whos been suicidal..
My mom is really really volatile, extrememly emotionally reactive, and often very very depressed.
she is generally the most nurturing selfless person i've ever known, but she has fits of anger, often at me and mostly aimed at herself.i know she's getting all the help she can from therapy, medication, and probably social support, but i'm really really confused sometimes as to how to react when she's really sad or mad. she tells me to leave her alone, but i worry because in the past when shes been sad and left alone shes tried suicide, so i dont want to let her just shut herself away in her room, but she gets really angry and defensive when i keep tabs on her.
i THINK she feels extreme guilt. it feels like theres nothing i can do to help her.she's dead set convinced that i'm patronizing her and using her illness against her "to feel better about myself", she tells me and everyone else, which is just completely false!
i dont know what to do. we have so many social discrepancies and she's so often deluded or paranoid by her emotions , just, does anyone have any advice on hoe i can get through to her. and how to not take it personally when she blows up in anger tells me things like i'm cruel and dont care?
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