Posted by AdaGrace on November 9, 2004, at 23:07:39
In reply to My parents, posted by Dinah on November 8, 2004, at 22:10:47
Dinah,
There are so many things in your post that sadden me and make my eyes water. I cannot understand how anyone can do that to their own daughter. Yet, I think of things I have gone through with my own father, and I can relate, somewhat. Just a tad. The thing that I realize is that he is my father, I have no choice in that matter, and as long as he is alive, I will do what i can to help him. However, he does not and I mean DOES NOT talk to me that way. Yet, he is old, and he is set in his ways, and he maked things inconvenient for us children. We allow it, because we are all afraid of the consequenses of us not catoring to his every whim. It is so very sad when you begin to think that the only way your life is going to get better is if someone dies. That is a horrifying feeling I keep deep, deep inside me. I know what it is like to be at someone's beck and call, and yet, there are no harsh words, no belittleing.......not anymore, but oooooohhhhh there used to be. Funny how things change when an older parent loses their spouse. You find out how that spouse really lived day in and day out. You become that spouse and your life changes forever. But I digress, I speak of my own experience and not of yours. Yours sounds too much to bear.....and I commend you for your steadfast efforts to continue to be there and do what you can. Noone said sainthood was easy to achieve, but you seem to be well on your way. May I suggest one thing? Write, sing, talk to the wind, and then use whatever else you have left to live through this hell you are in, because someday, someday soon, life will get better. It has to, for it doesn't seem it can get any worse.
God Bless You Dinah
AdaGrace
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