Posted by floatingbridge on August 15, 2011, at 14:31:03
As I read along here, the majority (it seems) have been in longer term therapeutic alliances.
Why would, when something starts out o.k., it go so horribly wrong? Enough that there is no repair. Even with good intentions.
I have seen this mentioned. Toxic therapy was mentioned.
This just happens? I can see, pretty well I think, considering I was the patient, how things fed into my fear loop and I
exited as re-traumatized.But from a therapist's view, how does this happen? It was not this fellows intent to re-traumatize me. He doesn't have devil horns. But why does someone really stop listening?
I am extricating myself from self-blame. Breaking with this therapist was good for me. I actually don't think he ever really saw just me. Plain old me.
Therapists are just people. Why did I think he was different than he was, as in more capable? Like I wanted to believe
the alter-self that he saw as me, and that I finally had to reject...?I admire some of you for how you work it out with your therapists so directly. The first and only time I ever shouted
at this (or any) therapist to shut the f*ck up you are driving me nuts! I was mortified. I have never shouted at a doctor before. Much less anyone with such a statement.I see here some of you have said similar things to your therapists.....
I don't think I could ever engage like that again. But as I read along, I also see some of you able to swing back to a baseline of being o.k. I suppose like a 'real life' relationship with resiliency.....
I dig a pony.
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