Posted by emmanuel98 on August 15, 2011, at 20:08:24
In reply to Transference and why some alliances go bad?, posted by floatingbridge on August 15, 2011, at 14:31:03
My relationship with my p-doc is becoming unhealthy in some ways I think. I saw him today. I have been feeling depressed again and am fighting this hard with DBT. He is no longer my primary therapist. He has told me he doesn't know what to do if I bottom out again. He is out of ideas and thinks the DBT is the only hope for me. I tend to agree.
But today, I felt really bad and felt he didn't care and didn't want to deal with another round of this. This is no longer his problem. He has already told me he can't help me, doesn't know what else to do besides encourage me with the DBT.
Maybe I should stop seeing him. I only see him every other week. But it still pains me to imagine a life without him. But it pained me today to realize that he doesn't really see himself as taking care of me anymore. He just sees me because I want to see him, not because he wants to see me and feels he can help.
I have never gotten angry with him. Even if he is wrong, I feel hurt rather than angry. I wish I could get angry with him and feel that he would not just be dismissive and contemptuous. I don't understand how people can fight with their therapists. Maybe I would be less sensitive to him if I could get mad at him.
I hate this transference stuff. It's been unimaginably painful for me and it doesn't seem to end. Will it ever end? I don't feel this way about my DBT therapist. Just him.
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