Posted by lucie lu on December 6, 2008, at 9:43:10
In reply to :( I wish I hadn't posted this now » Phillipa, posted by Wittgensteinz on December 6, 2008, at 4:54:53
Witti,
I have just read what you posted yesterday and was saddened that you were slow in getting responses. Friday nights tend to be slow for some reason on the board; I didn't check in at all yesterday. How alone you must have felt after baring your soul like that and hearing a loud silence, except for phillipa and vwoolf's compassionate replies. That must have felt awful. I believe it was unintentional though, and a function of the low posting volume.
What you wrote simply took my breath away. What an incredibly moving, honest and courageous account of all the hurdles and difficulties you have faced! I have a new respect and appreciation for the efforts you are making with your T and pdoc to work through these challenges. I really admire your bravery and think now I may have some small inkling now as to the heaviness of things that were weighing upon you, how desperate you might have felt, only a few months ago when you "broke the contract" with your T. I am so very glad, and moved, that you nonetheless decided to pick yourself up and try again despite the pain. And how difficult the rupture with your T must have been in the midst of all that emotional turmoil and uncertainty.
Really, after reading your post, Witti, I feel so much for you and all you've been through that it is difficult to find the words. I feel that I know you better now and appreciate the chance you took to reveal yourself with such candor and faith. I am so, so sorry that replies to your post were not immediately forthcoming, but really want to reassure you that some nights are just slow and it can be hard to reply, especially to a such a thoughtful posting. You are a valuable and cherished contributor to Babble, and I know that no one would ever purposely want to ignore you or your contributions. You are too important to us. I hope you will forgive us all and will continue to share aspects of your life with us. I know that you have influenced me and given me insights and encouragement, and I only hope I can give something back to you at some point in return for your generosity of spirit.
Love,
Lucie
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