Posted by rskontos on October 12, 2008, at 15:11:40
In reply to Re: Now I am really upset » lemonaide, posted by lucie lu on October 12, 2008, at 10:05:18
I hesitate to enter the fray because as I too followed this thread today, I realized feelings were running high and I want to be misunderstood either.
Lemonaide, you know I know the situation. I know the pain you have been throughout your life. I will put this as gently as I can, I don't want you to get upset with me, I know Witti and Daisym as well as you do, and they are the kindest sweetest people here who would not ever want to cause you more pain. I think when you read the responses, the emotions that were brought up to the surface included not only the emotions brought up from the pain your T inflicted on you but also those from your childhood which possibly are never far from the surface. I feel we all have layers of emotions and when sometimes these unresolved layers are scratched sometimes the underlying ones are revealed as well. Then, we overract. I say we because I do this all the time. I think this is what happened.
The poem you wrote, evoked painfully memories, both from your T but also from your childhood which he was suppose to be helping you deal with not causing more strife. He added to your pain. He did not help you to a safe place. He took your therapy away from you, left you more wounded. This is obvious because a year and half later the pain is still fresh.
Please don't run and hide. This is to let him win. Take charge of your life by moving forward.
Realize that everyone here is in struggles too and no one wants to make yours harder. Sometimes one of us might just try to get each of us to see things perhaps in a different light not a bad one just a different one. If that different light or view is not one that makes sense discard it. that is all.
I read the posts and did not think they meant to imply you were wrong. You weren't. You have a hard time not thinking that and it is easily read into something when you are hurting. I hope you realize that we all just want you to feel better.
I think the closure you seek to get your emotions regarding old sleazy t out of your system so you can move forward is crucial. You deserve not to give this sleaze ball any more thought. Maybe to file a complaint will do it. Maybe to have a ceremony were you erase him from your soul will do it. Hopefully this new t's validation will make you realize he is a sleaze and just not worth your time. He is not worth another tear, another thought.
Lemonaide is better than him and she has a life worth living and thinking about not him.
So don't leave, realize no one hear meant to hurt your feelings.
Take care,
we care,
rsk
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