Posted by seldomseen on October 10, 2008, at 6:36:11
In reply to Thank you everyone, posted by antigua3 on October 9, 2008, at 17:15:25
So, I've read the entire thread.
I think there is a lot of merit in focusing on your life and not your therapy.
I also understand your desire to avoid painful transference with a therapist. It's definately a bittersweet feeling, there is no doubt about that.
And I gotta say, things certainly seem to be rough (understatement) in your current therapy/pdoc situation.
I don't know if you are being re-traumatized or not. But there is a certain amount of re-traumatizing that does occur during therapy. I think it gives us a chance to relive and "correct" the experience.
But keep in mind, I'm pretty much past that point in my therapy so I have the benefit of not being in the middle of it. It's easy for me to speak about it more analytically as I've processed most of the emotions surrounding it.
God, I can't tell you the number of times I threatened to quit. Actually did quit. Went back only to quit again. Finally quit for real and went back and ultimately stayed in therapy.
If therapy were easy, everyone would do it.
It was a pattern for me, things get rough and I get itchy feet. I found I can rationalize anything and really have to watch myself. I think I've missed a lot of opportunities because of that pattern.
Now, I ask myself if I see any way possible for the situation to improve. Can I take steps to help it improve. I also try and clarify what outcome I would want if I stayed in.
If I can come up with answers to any of those questions, I stay and work. If I can't then I leave.
I'm sorry you are in the middle of this, and so wish for you an easy road ahead.
Seldom.
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