Posted by antigua3 on October 9, 2008, at 23:35:05
In reply to Re: Thank you everyone » Dinah, posted by lucie lu on October 9, 2008, at 18:07:19
> Antigua,
> You sound overwhelmed>> I am, and I feel like I've been an indulgent child for far too long when it comes to my therapy. I'm only speaking for myself here, BTW, so please don't anyone take offense (I've invested many, many years in this and have tried just about everything, and anyone who feels they are still making progress on their journey, kepp going!). I say this because I've reached a point where I feel like I've had enough. I am who I am
and I'm not going to get any better than this.>It sounds to me as though important goals have not yet been reached for you. I personally would not want to go through life with questions like that looming. Thats why Im in therapy.
>>I applaud your efforts. Keep it up and I sincerely hope that you reach your goals.
I think maybe I just kept setting the bar higher until it had become an impossible goal to achieve. I should be happy with how far I've come and how well I function, and that should be enough. It will be enough.> Its not black and white, there are shades of grey.
>>Wish I had a dollar for how many times I've heard this from my pdoc, although he, of course, operates in B&W. I try to see the world in gray, but in times of struggle it's hard to see it any other way. But at least i've learned to recognize it, which is helpful w/coping with it.
> Maybe you should focus on what feels good for you right now and not feel you have to make any major decisions just yet. I also wonder whether your DHs feelings about your therapy may be playing a role here. Are you feeling pressured?
>
Yes, I do feel intense pressure from my husband over this. He hates my pdoc with an inordinate passion, but he is fond of my T. Nothing feels good now, and I have some time before I'm scheduled to see either my T or pdoc. I'll think it through.Thank you so much,
antigua
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