Posted by seldomseen on April 18, 2008, at 5:34:31
In reply to Re: Trying to bail on the ClearSkies+ » Dinah, posted by rskontos on April 17, 2008, at 18:18:22
rsk,
There is a reason why "mother's little helper" was the nickname for Valium for many many years. Being a wife and mother is really hard (i am neither, but I can only imagine) under the best of circumstances. Add a layer of personal conflict, abuse and trauma and it's no wonder you are beginning to feel overwhelmed. It may seem like an ugly truth to you, but wouldn't anyone be tired in your position? I mean tired to the bone? I know I would.
In my opinion, there is absolutely nothing wrong with the way you feel right now. Given your circumstances I think it is entirely appropriate.
Personally, I think you need to give yourself a whole lot of credit that you are keeping it together.
I think your friend is right, I think you need to grieve your childhood. It seems to be a necessary step in getting our lives back.
I'm not sure that it is a good idea right to start looking for the hurts that may lurk in "middle earth". If they need to come out, they will (if my latest experience is any indication of how the subconscious works). You know they are there, perhaps you just need to sit with that for a while?
What I think you really need is some support - for you and your family. You need some time to grieve, you need some space to re-evaluate who you are and want you want and to recover your strength and re-join your life.
Do you have reliable child care available to you? Can your therapist help faciliate getting you this support?
I don't think you need to go through this alone. I do think there are resources out there that can help you.
Peace to you
seldom
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