Posted by Daisym on March 3, 2008, at 14:23:44
In reply to Re: MAD MAD MAD!, posted by pegasus on March 3, 2008, at 12:24:11
I think we all learned early on to collude with one another. I think you all have it right - I was testing the waters, asking, "do you really want to know?" and she was saying, "do I?" And Peg, you are also so right - I was saying, "you don't really want to know" and she was saying, "OK, I don't." It is all so complicated. And we talk about my sister like we aren't talking about me. It is easier to dismiss the black sheep of the family, isn't it?
I'm in total agreement about being numb, TG. It was easier when I didn't, couldn't, wouldn't, feel. I want to get back to that place.
I hear my therapist saying, "but can you?" @#$&*! NO - but I can try!
poster:Daisym
thread:815878
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