Posted by rskontos on February 16, 2008, at 21:16:21
In reply to Re: Took A Risk And Got Burned :( Poss triggerslon, posted by DAisym on February 16, 2008, at 14:35:17
Daisym,
>>Doesn't it feel like sometimes you never really stop paying for the past?
Yes it does. i feel like I am always to blame. I am the oldest too. She does not have a relationship with our father and I guess that too is my fault. She does not realize he mistreats me worse than he evers treats her by his silence to her. I tried to explain that I did not want to go over the past, I wanted to see if we could just try and start from this point and move on if we could just do that. I sadly do not think she heard me.
I am paying for my mistakes in life, my mother's and my father's and I don't know why. I am ok with mine but the rest, I am at a total loss. As I was the child and they the adult or so I am told.
Daiysm, thank you for you post and maybe somewhere I plant a kernel like you said. And if not, it will not be.
FOr what it worth, I don't think you were responsible for protecting your sister, you were not the adult in the situation. The adult violated you both.
I am sad for all of us, the little lost little ones that their trusted adults were not so trustworthy :)
rsk
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