Posted by RealMe on November 21, 2007, at 23:04:21
In reply to this has been coming on for a couple days now, posted by llurpsienoodle on November 21, 2007, at 22:05:22
Sure be like me; don't talk to T about it, and then like me you get to revisit it 20 years later. Hum--not a good plan, and if I had known then what I know now, I would have taken the bull by the horns. I think lots of us have stuff that is really dark and horrible, and I don't want to share with T, but today when I told him I did not want to get into horrible stuff and he indicated it still haunts me, I said, "you don't want to go there." He said maybe he didn't want to go there anymore than I do, but I have been there and go there alone, and he wants to go there with me so I won't be alone with it. He let me know no matter what, he can handle it. I told him I am scared, and he looks at me so intently it is painful. I started to feel closer to him again today, and then I went to work and just worked on reports and actually started to dissociate; almost fell off my chair and wrote stuff in the report that was my stuff. I always proof my repots, and went omg. So, I feel I have to protect myself somehow, but I can't just ignore what has reared it's ugly head either. It doesn't work. This is the voice of experience, unfortunately.
RealMe
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