Posted by Daisym on October 15, 2007, at 15:10:04
In reply to Re: Pushing and Pulling again » DAisym, posted by fallsfall on October 13, 2007, at 8:30:55
How come being aware doesn't help me not do it? :(
Isn't it interesting that I can absolutely "know" one thing and still feel a completely different thing?! Makes me wonder if I need more CBT techniques.
I think my abandonment issues are very, very deep. And as much as I think they are under control, when they flare up, it is like a volcano. And then there is such a need for containment - that physical need to be held so I don't blow apart. And I can't get that need met in therapy so what then? Ug - it all feels so futile sometimes. I lose track of what I'm even working toward with all this therapy. Just staying alive doesn't seem like enough.
And this is progress? I feel like I'm playing Shoots and Ladders and i just slid down backwards.
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