Posted by muffled on January 28, 2007, at 22:44:21
In reply to Re: canceled my T apt...why do i do this to myself?, posted by youngaddict on January 26, 2007, at 13:43:30
>** she called me and left me a pretty professional message about how she was calling back to reschedule, but it was on speaker phone so i felt like she didn't even have the decency to call me regulary, like she was too busy doing other stuff....little things like that really annoy me.
yup
> ** I really should try to start writing things downm, although I am unsure of how she would react. I have a feeling she wouldn't be happy because that would be like a step back in therapy, having to write stuff down because i am a wimp? i don't know.. i should mention it.Never a step back to truly express yourself. Writings are just a steppingstone..
Hey you! I write MOSTLY, ya wanto meet me somewhere, I can show you I NO wimp (cept in T).LOL.> ** They can be such bas&^rds.,.haha...
well, they sure can make ya feel bad allright
> ** I have posted there but a lot of people post there about the medication they are on and stuff.. nothing really too helpful like this board. I love this board...
:)
> ** She does, and she has been talking to me about NA for months and I tried it but didn't really put my all into it. Shes very knowledgable about the program.. I was clean for 28 days and then I just relapsed..
well, if you addicted i don't suppose you GONNA come clean the first time.....
I couldn't do AA. For one thing I got tired of getting hit on, and for another I just didn't seem to fit in. I went to NA and it was even WORSE!> ** I know. right now i guess i don't want it badly enough.
Its gotcha by the short and curlys. Gonna hurt.
> ** we have been doing that but then i get so mad because i want to know why i am an addict, what reason i have etc.. and my t wants me to just forget that and work on getting clean first,
Yeah,I just can't do good T while using, just can't.
As for addiction, hell it feels so f*cking GOOD, no wonder addiction.
Mebbe incentive to stop using that sh*t might be the thot you can do good T?
Sorry, I a little messed.
Just in my head.
Take care kiddo,
Muffled
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