Posted by happykat on January 25, 2007, at 12:59:05
In reply to canceled my T apt...why do i do this to myself?, posted by youngaddict on January 24, 2007, at 19:26:14
Hi youngaddict,
I test my t alot too and she has failed frequently. One thing that has helped me that Muffled mentioned too is writing it out for your t. I started writing a couple of pages of notes that I hand my t every week. When I'm really angry at her and can't say it, I bury it somewhere in my notes and she always finds it and we talk about it.
I tend to read things into every word she says or gesture she makes and as I've started communicating with her more I realize that I misread her all the time. It's really important to find a way to communicate what it is you need from her. I think writing is the easiest. You could even write out your feelings about trying to deal with addiction. It may give her a better perspective of what you're going through. Do you like to write? Do you keep a journal?
It's hard when you're trying to work through addiction issues. It's really important that you have someone who understands and knows how to handle those issues. Does your t have any experience with addiction? 12 Step programs are also great to do in conjunction with therapy. It helps to be around others going through the same.
If you really don't want to go back I would at the very least write out how you honestly feel about therapy, fighting your addiction, needing your t to be there for you, etc.. and go to one more session and give it to her.
The last time I tried to quit therapy I did that and she read what I wrote and she understood me for the first time. You got to let them know whats going on in your head. That's the only way they can truly help.
I wish you lots of luck. Hang in there.
Regards,
happykat
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