Posted by ElaineM on October 14, 2006, at 19:49:35
Is it alright if I talk about my stupid crap? i need help:"( I'm having one of the worst bottoming-out periods ever - and I just need to get through next week. I need to be strong and I'm a mess. too many painkillers. marked-up. I feel so on-the-verge. I kinda think I'm going crazy. I've never felt this intensity for so long. It is very hard to type. It is very hard to think in a line - like have thoughts connect and be in some order. T's away this weekend - and i don't know if that makes it harder or easier :(
But I don't want to bore you guys, or worse piss, you off. Is it better if I keep it off the board? my problems are not actually the greatest subject. and it doesn't seem relevant to anyone else :( honestly. you can tell me to shut up. I'm sorry I keep bothering you all. I'm pretty lonely. and scared. and I can't sit upright for long periods:( The days I can't go out, and don't see other people, I feel like I'm the only person in the world. weekends are hardest :( But I don't want to infect others.
poster:ElaineM
thread:694836
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