Posted by alexandra_k on October 14, 2006, at 20:33:54
In reply to anyone, posted by ElaineM on October 14, 2006, at 19:49:35
> Is it alright if I talk about my stupid crap?
Of course.
> i need help:"(
((((elaine))))
> I'm having one of the worst bottoming-out periods ever - and I just need to get through next week. I need to be strong and I'm a mess. too many painkillers. marked-up. I feel so on-the-verge. I kinda think I'm going crazy. I've never felt this intensity for so long. It is very hard to type. It is very hard to think in a line - like have thoughts connect and be in some order. T's away this weekend - and i don't know if that makes it harder or easier :(
sounds like you are having a hard time. I'm sorry :-(
> But I don't want to bore you guys, or worse piss, you off. Is it better if I keep it off the board? my problems are not actually the greatest subject. and it doesn't seem relevant to anyone else :( honestly. you can tell me to shut up. I'm sorry I keep bothering you all. I'm pretty lonely. and scared. and I can't sit upright for long periods:( The days I can't go out, and don't see other people, I feel like I'm the only person in the world. weekends are hardest :( But I don't want to infect others.
Hearing about other peoples problems is good for me. It gets my head out of my *ss. I've been very self absorbed... Need to get my head out of my *ss... One example... I've been staying away from work because I'm been having a hard time and I didn't want to get them down. We had a review... We thought it would be okay... There has been something of a jack up... People weren't happy at work. I should have gone along and had some company in my misery. Sigh. Isn't it funny how we are okay with other peoples problems but ours seem different somehow...
Weekends used to be the hardest time for me too, I understand that. You won't infect me, I promise.
Please talk to us...
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thread:694836
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