Posted by ElaineM on October 15, 2006, at 20:27:17
In reply to Re: more2 * abuse trig » ElaineM, posted by fayeroe on October 15, 2006, at 19:38:28
Hi fayeroe, I don't ever mind anyone jumping in. You sound like my old T too. I'd like to have tea with you too. I drink tons of it. And I listen to music and do the same thing as you by focusing on singing or saying the lyrics -- sometimes I can re-focus myself. Sometimes it makes me sad cause I can't dance anymore, but I just try and not listen to theater music.
>>>>You "T" worries me. It sounds as if you're taking care of him more than he caring for you. That can turn into a really sticky situation as you aren't able to heal him.
I'm trying to. I figure I cause him so much pain that the least I can do is try and help soothe him or something. I just find it hard to spend time together outside the office. Even though it would help him not be lonely or sad, it scares the sh*t out of me. I feel sort of safe inside his office. I'm already so close to screaming during sessions. Either that or I just lie there like I've been shot (when I manage to come to him during a bad pain time). I just can't stop thinking terrifying thoughts, and I think he's picking up on it, and it hurts him more. I care for him alot but I just can't say the L word. It's too hard. And it makes bad thoughts come more.
>>>>He has to turn to someone else and confide in a another professional. He also needs to realize what a tremendous burden he is putting up you, his patient.
He did start to see one of his old T's, but he's not gonna keep going, and he's not gonna talk about me. (I may have said more details about this earlier, but maybe not, too lazy to re-read)
>>>>>I suggest, gently, that you consider seeing someone else before your situation gets any worse.
Pat, it's amazing that you said that at the very end, cause that's what the final part of my update was about, and why this week coming could be hard, and what I need help with. But I haven't decided if I can write it out cause I'm afraid - though I'll probably just blurt it anyways.
Thanks for the support.
blove, EL
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