Posted by llrrrpp on September 14, 2006, at 10:10:39
In reply to day #3, posted by wishingstar on September 13, 2006, at 20:03:18
Wishingstar,
you're doing great! I'm so proud of you. It's terrible that Anne has let you down again. Do you feel strong enough to tell her how hurt and disappointed you are? I don't think you are expecting too much. I think you are receiving too little. It has nothing to do with your self-worth. Sounds like Anne has her own issues. One thing that occurs to me (I may be COMPLETELY off base here, so just ignore me or argue back as necessary!) is that Anne may think that she has failed you. That Anne is feeling like a less than efficacious source of help for you. She may feel like she has let you down already, and has given up hope in her own ability to help you at this point in time. She's avoiding you (on purpose? unconsciously?0 because your situation makes her feel bad about herself as a caring professional.anyways, this does not make you a bad person
This does not make you a bad person.
I'll repeat it once more. This does not make you a bad person :o)You are very good to seek help. You are at a place where you're ready for some intense work. Anne no doubt helped you prepare for that kind of work. I'm sure that you are stronger today because of your relationship with Anne in the past. I'm sorry that she can't be with you in the present though. It's hard. I'm glad you have other sources of support.
best to you-
-ll
(another person who has adverse experiences during meditation...)
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