Posted by toetapper on September 12, 2006, at 20:37:49
In reply to day #2, posted by wishingstar on September 12, 2006, at 19:10:02
Hi,
I've hardly posted here, I feel kind of funny jumping in when I don't know anyone, it feels awkward to me. But I'm sitting here leaking tears and snot all over the place at how clueless she is, I was outraged about the appointment thing and how her defensiveness immediately tried to push it back on you and how over and over again she keeps screwing up and how much I know you hurt over her. It hits something so deep in me, I just want to take your face in my hands and tell you in a magical way you can hear it's not you. It's not you. I'M PROUD OF YOU. For all of it. For trying, over and over and over again when it has to be excruciating to keep being that exposed, for having that determination to be acknowledged, for recognizing you needed to go, for figuring out the best possible plan, and then seeing it through no matter how difficult. I'd really like to keep hearing how you are doing each day, it makes a difference to me. I draw a lot of determination and resolve from it, to take responsibility for my own life, to recognize sometimes it really isn't me, and to challenge my own sense of "worthiness".
I'm just really proud of you.
poster:toetapper
thread:685077
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060911/msgs/685427.html